tl;cr meme

[marriagebroker]

post your character, people reply, give them the deets. you know how this goes.

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[beatmatching]

me wanting to answer your tlcr when i heard the voice memo but i was at AX and i could not

also fyre being like what are u listening to and im like "jae narrating our cr" and she laughed

ANYWAY!!

yike!!!

so i think thread 1 happened the way it did because it was thread 1, which is to say luka was in the most performance mode he would be in during his time on ayto. he also didn't really know what to expect coming in, so peak "Ruler of My Heart" mindset, which is why he decided pretty immediately that he wanted to strangle yi sang lol

for luka, the talk of how passive yi sang was reminded him of himself, more so bc of his mindset above. i do think luka is really aware of how he comes off, including how he goes along with everything heperu asks of him. i also think luka knows hes lonely too but its something he's long accepted because even hyuna left him. to have that in his mind, thrown back in his face just made him violent because. yeah he Sees. though part of it was also bc he wondered if he could push yi sang to have a reaction bc that'd be fun

but that interaction stuck with him in his mind somewhere, though he didn't consider it again for match purposes until the end of week 2. maybe bc some small part of him bought into that the matches would be in some way complimentary/positive (even if he never believed maya was his match).

from the beginning of week 3 onward, even if luka had personal doubts that edamura/rom were a match (bc it seemed too convenient???) he knew that if that assumption held true, and his match was a guy, then it had to be yi sang. bc edamura and yi sang were the only guys he felt anything towards even if that was to SQUISH THEM (tbh he vibed with verso in a diff way but since he was spoken for he could disregard that).

initially i dont think lukas intention was to get yi sang to pick him at the ceremony so much as luka just wanting to look like he's helping (for maya), but that changed once they started to talk. luka is someone who's never picked! his entire life! despite having 9999999 fans, but on a personal level... no one ever likes him for who he is and if they do, they don't like him enough to pick him when it matters (see hyuna). as much as luka is used to it, it still eats at him because deep down he's still a little boy who wants to be good and wanted and loved.

so... WOOF was their convo bad for him. it reaffirmed how alone he is the world, it reaffirmed that even in diff universes people will treat him the same way, and if he wasn't trying to behave he really would have gotten mucho violent. because that's his version of begging, in a way. and while I can see why yi sang offered to include luka on his conversation with odile, that was just another slap to his dignity. luka didnt take it as (youre including me) but that (youre bringing me along so I can beg to her too). which fuck that noise. as much as him bringing them up was for logical reasons, it quickly turned into an emotional one because again luka felt discarded and unwanted.

their cr was irrecoverable at that point because yi sang had his choice in odile and thus luka made his choice in writing yi sang off forever. id need to math lady if theres a reunion post if luka would just pretend he doesnt exist or something else... im not sure yet.

oh! bc you mentioned it in your commentary, I dont think luka ever looked as yi sang growing a spine/opinion as growth bc of what he said. he never looked at him pushing in that way + pushing at luka just makes him back harder... ORZ.

i think luka still wants to hurt yi sang deeply and if he wasnt going to be using all his brain cells learning how to be a house husband, he'd probably devote them there tbh. yi sang doesnt deserve this!!!