[ Her eyelids lower, then slowly flutter shut. What would they all wish for, now? She spent so long maintaining their last wishes before they died, it's been hard to imagine anything past that. ]
Mm... everyone's been encouraging me a lot.
[ She doesn't feel so apathetic as she did when she entered the competition. Now, when she thinks about withering away... ]
...I do want to keep living. I want to keep feeling happiness like this again, like I did before. [ She leans a little towards Shoko's way, smoke be damned. ] Being here, talking with all of you, helped me realize that....
[ ...She misses her moms. She always will, and deciding to keep going doesn't mean the void of that loss has closed. But Shoko's right. Her family would want her to feel happy again, to be loved and cherished again. Quietly, she confesses to Shoko, who she knows has similarly been left behind: ]
Because if I don't — I'm scared of being alone again.
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Mm... everyone's been encouraging me a lot.
[ She doesn't feel so apathetic as she did when she entered the competition. Now, when she thinks about withering away... ]
...I do want to keep living. I want to keep feeling happiness like this again, like I did before. [ She leans a little towards Shoko's way, smoke be damned. ] Being here, talking with all of you, helped me realize that....
[ ...She misses her moms. She always will, and deciding to keep going doesn't mean the void of that loss has closed. But Shoko's right. Her family would want her to feel happy again, to be loved and cherished again. Quietly, she confesses to Shoko, who she knows has similarly been left behind: ]
Because if I don't — I'm scared of being alone again.