[ It... says volumes of Yingying, that she's had this offer made to her many times already, and that she's likely politely refused each one just as she does now. But it's deserved, Shoko thinks, for the softness and kindness she's shown them.
For Shoko, especially, that sort of genuine concern for her wellbeing is... it can be hard to come by - harder still, to accept it. So she's strangely grateful for Yingying, for seizing matters into her own hands that one night, to simply give Shoko the rest she so needed. Offering her this wish doesn't feel like too big of a kindness in exchange for what she's given Shoko. It was much more than just rest - it was a pleasant dream, a reminder of bygone days that she can look back on with less regret, and a quiet, tender morning. Maybe she'll never quite articulate how much that meant to her, but she can at least share her reasons for freely offering her wish on Yingying's behalf. ]
The only sincere desire in my heart isn't something I want to use a wish for.
[ Shoko closes her eyes and sighs, though the slight curl in her lips suggests a sort of wistfulness than anything else. ]
My old friends - the ones I saw in the dream you gave me... When I think about it, I realize that we were all wanting the same thing, in the end. For sorcerers to be able to live better lives... But I think that it's attainable, even now, even without a wish. Because the students... they're strong enough to change things for the better. Stronger than we ever were at that age.
So I don't want to use a wish, because I want to see that change happen because of the students. And because of the teachers that raised them to be able to achieve it. If that makes my work easier, too, then I have no reason to be discontent.
[ She sighs again, shaking her head, this time because she can't believe she said all that sappy stuff in front of cameras, just now. ]
That's why I don't mind using my wish for you, Yingying. But it's not something that needs to be decided this second, either.
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For Shoko, especially, that sort of genuine concern for her wellbeing is... it can be hard to come by - harder still, to accept it. So she's strangely grateful for Yingying, for seizing matters into her own hands that one night, to simply give Shoko the rest she so needed. Offering her this wish doesn't feel like too big of a kindness in exchange for what she's given Shoko. It was much more than just rest - it was a pleasant dream, a reminder of bygone days that she can look back on with less regret, and a quiet, tender morning. Maybe she'll never quite articulate how much that meant to her, but she can at least share her reasons for freely offering her wish on Yingying's behalf. ]
The only sincere desire in my heart isn't something I want to use a wish for.
[ Shoko closes her eyes and sighs, though the slight curl in her lips suggests a sort of wistfulness than anything else. ]
My old friends - the ones I saw in the dream you gave me... When I think about it, I realize that we were all wanting the same thing, in the end. For sorcerers to be able to live better lives... But I think that it's attainable, even now, even without a wish. Because the students... they're strong enough to change things for the better. Stronger than we ever were at that age.
So I don't want to use a wish, because I want to see that change happen because of the students. And because of the teachers that raised them to be able to achieve it. If that makes my work easier, too, then I have no reason to be discontent.
[ She sighs again, shaking her head, this time because she can't believe she said all that sappy stuff in front of cameras, just now. ]
That's why I don't mind using my wish for you, Yingying. But it's not something that needs to be decided this second, either.