[. . . admirable? a public service? very cool? Edamura's features slacken even more as he stares at Rom, before something tight clutches at his heart and forces him to look away. that's probably how Laurent-- how the rest of Team Confidence-- saw themselves. but. . ]

I don't think I'm very admirable.

[. . . it's never how Edamura had]

I don't think what I'm doing is right by any means. [is lying and betraying someone-- even the worst of the worst society has to offer-- ever right]

But I guess it-- [ngggg. his features twist in consternation]

It gives me purpose.

[AND THEN, DEEPLY BEGRUDGINGLY]

. . . it's kind of fun.